Tuesday, January 27, 2009

So you is paradise

Romantic small particles
   
After graduating from college, I went to do a fashion magazine editor, Paul went to a small US-owned financial company to do Assistant. When he first entered the company’s wages are very low, almost half of only so much I, and 3 years later, when I was still at the monthly get it to 1000 dollars, he wages a nearly 5-digit.
Small Paul is very smart, extremely hard work, very much appreciated by his superiors, he also has been talking about since the United States of certain people to earn money. When I have fallen on deaf ears, even if heard, not too seriously.
Still remember that day happens to be light snow, we are in Monte Carlo about a cup of coffee. Sunday, the weather forecast said sleet today. Down shortly Xiaobao mystery told me, because of his outstanding achievements, the company is prepared to go to the United States in his headquarters for a two-year training.
Back is the general manager of a small security. Small Paul is very proud of.
“Okay.” I play the cup, “how much money a month?”
He did not justifications for me, and drank a cup Bao, “I do not want to go.”
“Why?” I am yelling, and “The good thing is not to gold-plated? And total return, or a fart!” I stabbed him with his finger, “you stupid? Is … …” I laughed: “I want to you? “
He is also no justification for me, look around to see what I do not know.
“Hey! Words to speak!” I started to kick and stab him, “I really do, if not met you, I certainly do not believe that the friendship between women and men really exist.” When I say this is very sincere .
Xiaobao diagonally take a look at my eyes, his face a model float: “Did you want it again a little ambiguous?”
“Then I would like to do your while allowing others to joke to you, that you find a the world’s ugliest. Well, overall it is also a fart, so no standard.”
“Yo, you the United States, but also, I ‘ambiguous’ do you mean is there any space for me to do part-time … …” he voice, I have been thrown over a back cushion.
To cover up his confusion is the best way to create a false impression, so that others do not feel you on a real experience, can not touch your thoughts. This is not very good? Is it necessary to own non-stripped, naked displayed for others to see? Although I said mockingly, then there was the slightest sense of  Hermes Bags. There is no omen that he should go.
Silence. Air flow of small particles feel suffocated, and even floated from time to time the music is bloody. Chang Hui-mei clear how the singing rock will sing “I can hold you love,” such a tone? All this, let me cry.
    
He describes himself to smile, “will come to send me?”
I nodded, his eyes looking out the window, the sky in a light rain. Nice. This is very romantic, is not it?
Two weeks later he was prepared to depart. I went to the airport to send him, is very easy to say goodbye to him, is still officially kissed his.
Xiaobao never had a look at me, eyes in addition there is still much room for nostalgia. Eyes that makes me feel that perhaps this really is a kind of sad. Looked at him dragging baggage at the gates, I know that everything has been irreparable. I stood there staring, tears finally fail to live up to out of orbit. Regardless of the eyes of other people — Why am I not right, he said: Actually, I want you go, in order me to stay, please? Give me a little time. Maybe I’ll fall in love with you … …
TV quietly without any sound, this is my 9th Kuan it, although a little while I will also not help to open it.
I have been insured under the banner of a small telephone, has been can not get through, I would very much hope the voice of small security suddenly sounded.
My heart has always been a secret, it was after graduating from university two Anniversary, I and small capital to celebrate their return to school will be opened. To go on the road, I received a call from Xiaobao, his voice seemed to be somewhat disturbed that after the end of the evening we return to high school classes in the classroom, please? I have the words to tell you. Ranging from I answered, he would rush to hang up the phone.
Small Paul has not even know, in fact, that night I went, and I have been sitting on the ground floor of the garden flowers, has been looking at 3rd floor classroom lights and then opened out, and then went downstairs Xiaobao, out of Hermes , and then I went upstairs.
The city set aside a piece of land to the school to build a new teaching building, students have to move to a new building, and this building shortly after the old buildings will be removed, the construction of a new stadium.
Confusion classroom, desks and flooded a thick layer of dust. Looking from the podium to open the table was obviously a Road, I looked at the end of Road, goes for small security desks and instant feelings … …
What he will say to me? Paul was brought up this issue and then made a phone call to haunt me, until I came face desks before seen Xiaobao finger to draw in the dust on the word — “Xiaobao love”, the two the names of the use of a pericardial around, and in the center of convergence.
The next day, I punched a telephone Xiaobao: “sorry ah, I am sorry, yesterday was drunk, and you, not angry, right?”
   
Phone
    
New York World Trade Center was bombed 3 days later, I lost a full lap. Whenever, I would like a neuropathy of the stadium in four years walked up and down, and kept crying and calling.
Has been a week, still no audio Xiaobao, I am still in the stadium walked up and down, tears, phone calls.
I sat in the grass, my face buried in his hands, the tears come from seeping through our fingers, has been dripping grass above, into the earth. Rest in this space, my phone rang. Who I do not want to shut down the rationale for trying to … … when a thought flashed - will be Xiaobao it? Will be long-distance call?
Telephone, and my heart, and carefully fed a cry, but I heard it was the echo, I ventured, Hey! At this time phone started hissing sound, which have been “neigh” sound of the destruction is not clear that it is to listen to the voices in the ringing, but I am sure it is personal in me.
“Little Paul? … …” I was trying to distinguish the voices on TV drama.
” Hey!” I heard your question clearly! Paul is a small voice! God, he is still alive! I should say, after a no longer speak, but listening to a kick and said he was originally said to him, I think that the words, heard him say he’s injury immediately after it came back , heard him say how he is in the heroic firemen help get aid … …
Hanging up the phone, I am back lying on the grass, the whole body limp. Crying swollen eyes open only a trace of, I saw the sky high, the white pocketsquare stars, beautiful … …
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A woman is willing to do rather than his wife

I love you, ready to be your woman, but it is not your wife.
What is his wife is a piece of paper signed the marriage certificate had been a heavy name, is a show of hands in front of God vowed to lifelong allegiance to the people, which is a double-bed for granted another soft pillow is to be betrayed once experienced legal provisions. And these compared to Valentine’s is just wandering the liberal professions.
For his wife for his wife, the benefits of its own, can give a precious sons and daughters openly name, posted on the household registration book; can openly condemned her husband’s betrayal in a time when aged beauty to a piece of paper instruments to ensure the identity, even if her husband had tired of has. However, there are those who love a mix of a lot of impurities, no longer flashing holy brilliance.
Have heard of a story: the husband has an affair, but also a woman he loves. Later that Valentine’s retreat, the reason is that a man’s handkerchief Forever trousers ironing a neat line, also with a shirt and tie so good, it shows him how powerful is a wife. This is the image of women’s commandment, telling a woman, like others, as his wife, wanted to remain unchanged in the fashion jewelry of the status of the husband of the attention so much. And I, I am not an all-powerful woman, I will not, I will not, under the household and kitchen, I do not want to put love of laughter and entertainment come forward; I have only just a simple mind, as long as the simple love, not even covered in the above secular stamp, braving the risk of desecration of the event. I love you, just the love itself. Perhaps as a woman, love is the sole of my life, no love, moon and stars are dark with a heavy heart. But that does not mean you - I love the object is what I cherish more than eyes also important. No one is so worthy of trust, I can only loyal to myself. Not worthy of condemnation betrayed because we have does not belong to each other;It is also because we are two independent entities in order to attract each other, while in hand.
Buddhist goes: love it by the Health and worries, it is by the love of Health Distribution, if far from in love, and not to worry about handmade jewelry. I do not leave loved ones, but at least let his love to maintain a most sober and most innocent heart, to hold beauty and wisdom, the freedom to love whom I loved, cast aside all of the hypocritical and ugly.
Perhaps you will change, perhaps I, in this complex now, who can guarantee that tomorrow you and I still love the people? But at least, we will seize this moment of happiness, sorrow God pity if so, had the honor of a total of… …
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